Some passions...not followed...

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So, i am writing after quite sometime. Examination time! I have already screwed two papers so far. Two more are left. God knows what'll be their fate. Since its exam time these days, let me express my hatred for these exams. I hate exams!!! Not because i hate studies or i am scared of hard work. But because i feel that mugging up so many formulae, derivations and theory which i'll definitely forget after coming out of the examination hall, cannot make me a good engineer.

Anyways, lets get back to the topic. Well, i study in the topmost branch of one of the best engineering colleges of our country. I remember the day i cleared my entrance exam. My parents and friends were so excited about it, and so was i. That was the last time i felt like having achieved something big(in academics off course). In three years of my college life, i can't think of a single moment of feeling proud of calling myself an engineer. I hate labs, lectures, assignments, files and what not!!! Although i have managed a decent percentage, i have never ever felt passionate about engineering. Being in this field, I have never experienced the kind of happiness i get when people praise me for my music n at times writing skills. I have never experienced the kind of happiness i get when i perform before a big audience amidst cheers and claps. And so, at times i wonder why am i here??? And then i realise that the answers cannot be explained. Similarly one of my batchmates takes a lot of interest in photography. He reminds me of R. Madhavan's character from 3 Idiots. Whenever i see the pics clicked by him i always feel he shouldn't be in an engineering college man!!! And then, the same story applies to him as well. Likewise i see a lot of people around me who are passionate about a lot of things like singing, dancing, sports, instrumental, etc but not engineering. But still they are here. Giving up their passions for something they don't even like. Maybe its a kind of rat race. A race where a person who scores well in school has to opt for science, has to clear entrances, has to become a doctor or an engineer. Other subjects are not for academically bright students. And the irony is we ourselves have chosen to be a part of this rat race....

Happy Mothers' Day

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Mothers' Day...A day to celebrate motherhood...A day to make your mother feel special...A day to tell her how much you love her...


But according to me, everyday day should be a Mothers' Day. We shouldn't wait for a single day to make our mothers feel special. We shouldn't keep our love in our hearts to be expressed on a single day. Because mothers are indeed so special...

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Very often people tell me that i have a sweet smile and a soft voice, both of which i have inherited from my mom. At home, my dad often finds it irritating when i take my mom's side during an argument. Its not because i am partial towards her but because i completely identify with her. Because i am so much like her. Because usually i feel if i were in her place then even i would do the same. Because i feel mom understands me so well. Some of my friends often tell me how they tell their moms about all the happenings everyday. Because my mom is a doctor, i don't really get too much time to spend with her. That's why i eagerly wait for my mom to get back from her workplace. I love to lie down with my head in her lap and feel her hand moving over my head. I love the way she surprises us by making nice delicacies when we casually ask her to make something special. I love the way she teasingly tells my brother that she loves me slightly more than him because she experienced motherhood for the first time because of me! I love the fact that i look like her, i speak like her. Mothers always see the best in their kids. We can't even imagine how much our mothers love us and as we grow up, this relation strengthens more and beautifully culminates into friendship. I heartily wish all the mothers a very Happy Mothers' Day!!!

I don't know why....

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Few days back, i got to see the first glimpse of the corporate world. A core electronics company had come to the college for an internship program but i was more excited about dressing up in formals and seeing my friends dressed up in formals as well! We were supposed to have a written exam followed by an interview for those clearing the exam. As expected, very few people managed to clear the exam. Among those who couldn't clear it, some didn't really bother much whereas some started thinking what could have gone wrong with their answers. Moreover, some people whose friends got selected but they didn't felt quite low. A lot was going on in my mind at that time. Actually i wasn't really serious about getting selected that day so i didn't really feel bad about not clearing the exam or my friends clearing it. But in few months when we'll start with our placement session, we'll often find ourselves in such a situation. At times our friends will clear the exams and interviews while we might not be able to. I would always want to be a part of their success and joys but i don't know why i feel i might not be able to. I would always want to be a part of their celebrations but i don't know why i feel i might not be able to. I don't know what is the real cause of getting disheartened at such times: your own failure or your friend's success??? Or does your friend's success accentuate your failure??? I simply don't know and I can't understand what I should do when I find myself in such a situation....